Blogging loser

A lot has happened since I last blogged, Chris got a new job ( YEAH!!!!) We are able to pay our bills and I don't feel like I am having a heart attack every time the mail comes:) He is gone a lot and we don't see him much, that really stinks, but we are grateful for the job and will just grin and bare it:) 

Christmas was great ( I am glad it is over) and the kids are all doing really well. 

Hopefully it won't be another 4 months before I blog again!

Damn Lady

Grrr.... Yup I said Grrr... I am irritated to say the least! I took Nick and Heather to the Dentist this morning, they have been going to this Dentist since before I was in the picture. I have actually never taken them before, Chris always does, but today I had to... Anyway, Chris has had a payment arrangement with them for FOREVER... HE told me how nice they were and how they will work with you. ( Sigh)

SO I am checking out and the lady said, Do you want to make a payment, I said yes ( Chris has been paying them monthly) She asks if I will pay in full.. Ummm , No I say, I can make a payment ( Duh you just asked me if I can make a payment) How much can you pay? She asks, 30 dollars I say.. You can't pay half? Is her response..... No I say, We lost our benefits, I can pay 30 dollars.... I say with a stressed grin on my face. How about a third? She says.... I say to her, MY husband lost his job, we lost our benefits, all I can pay is 30 dollars......

Do you realize that it will take you 8 months to pay this off? Is what she said to me...

"Good thing you work in a dentists office, because I am going to reach across this desk and pull your front teeth out!" Is what I was thinking, But I said, Yes I realize that, but I am doing the best I can. Finally another lady stepped from around the corner and said " Oh ya, I have this all worked out with Chris"

I realize a lot of people have lost jobs= benefits.. and Doctors have to get paid, but at least we are trying! My neurologist saw me for free two weeks a go because we lost our insurance. I was so shocked and humbled:) Sigh, such is life lately.. I am trying really hard to have faith and endure.. But it is HARD! and I am sick of it... there I said it, judge me all you want.. I am sick of it!!!!

Now that, that is off of my chest I am going to go pray that a very rich benefactor comes into our life and makes this all go away, or at least half of it:) ( The last few sentences were sarcasm.. sorta) :)

School

Well another year of school has started, I can't believe how big Nick and Heather have gotten. I am so glad that they like school. Nick and a friend both "like" the same girl.... I tell ya, being a mother to a little boy has opened my eyes to so many things. Boys are just as dramatic as girls I think.

He played bocugone ( Sp) the other day with the little girl, so I guess they are an item:)

Heather is my little fashonista (sp again) she puts together the cutest funkiest outfits..... She must get that from her Dad, HA HA...

Maddy and Ben were lost the first few days without Nick and Heather, But they seem to be adjusting now. I think it is sweet how much they all love each other. Maddy is talking more and more and learning so much, Ben can say "Love you" now. Ben now weighs more than Maddy, exactly one pound more:)

Life is slowly but surely getting back to normal, Sudden death of a loved one sure knocks you on your Keester. I miss my brother and see so much of him in Maddy. It is still so strange to think that he is gone, and the way that he left still bothers me, my Grandma says it doesn't matter how we leave, we all have to die... I wish I could think that way.

Anywho, my babies are sleeping so I think I will enjoy a hopefully nice long nap:)

Evidence and Thank You

The evidence is all in, pray that if this man deserves punishment that it comes swiftly.....


The officer that was on the scene told me that there was no way that this man could have not known that he ran over a person. If that is the case I hope they can prove it.


Thanks to everyone who has been so helpful and kind.... Especially to Crystal who baby sat me while I made arrangements for Christopher.... Your a great friend and I know you hate the mushy crap.. but I love ya!

Thanks Beck for listening to me:) I love you too:)

Wonder

As I write this, sitting next to me is a picture of my youngest brother Christopher. A week a go today was his last day on earth.  I keep waiting for these feelings of numbness people keep telling me about. I would love to be numb. Instead I feel this over whelming sadness that I can't describe. 

I wonder if it will ever go away......

I wonder if my Mom will ever be the same.

I wonder if I will ever get his service planned.

I wonder if it will be a good service, one he would like.

I wonder if he knew how much I really did love him.

I wonder if he ever knew how much he was loved.

I wonder if he is happy.

I wonder if I will ever stop wondering......

I love you Christopher

Christopher John Lyons November 16, 1987 - July 5, 2009 Christopher John Lyons was born November 16, 1987 to Rand D. Lyons and Cathy Lyons in Englewood, Colorado, and was killed tragically in the early morning hours of July 5, 2009 in Tescott, Kansas. He is survived by his mother, Cathy Lyons of Grand Junction; father, Rand Lyons of Denver; sister, Amy Eglet (Chris) and her children, Nicholas, Benjamin and Heather; brothers, Thomas Trucks, Mickel Lyons, and Joshua Roden; grandparents, Bud and Opal Roden; a beautiful fiance, Christin Walters, and daughters, Madysen and Brooklyn all of Grand Junction. Christopher was a great guy who saw the good in everyone. He was a great father, son, brother, grandson and uncle. His death is devastating to all who knew and loved him, but we know that through our Heavenly Father's plan, we will see him again. Services will be held at the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, 2881 E. Orchard Ave., on July 18 at 12:00 p.m.
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Hard life and blessings

Well life has been a tad rough as of late... Chris lost his job in April.. He has a new job.... it doesn't pay anywhere near what he was making, no benefits, but we are grateful for the work.....


We had savings but it is slowly dwindling away... and pretty soon it will be gone.... how will we pay our bills?

This is all I have been thinking about as of late.... I have been down in the dumps to say the least, so now I have decided to make a list of all of our blessings maybe that will help

1. Each other, I waited what felt like an eternity to find Chris, I love him and am very grateful for him

2. My children, each one of them is a blessing and I also love them very much.

3. Gospel, I can't imagine going through this without knowing that we have a loving Father in Heaven...

4. Friends and family that listen to me (thanks Beck)

5. Sense of humor it comes in quite handy in situations like these

6. He does have a job, so many don't right now

7. Kindness of others

I know it won't always be this way, we will get through this.... I hope :)

Uncle TOm

If my husbands Uncle doesn't move out of this house soon I will lose my mind! It's like having an annoying teen ager know it all around ALL OF THE TIME..... He is 61... I'm gonna lose it!

Sucks

LIFE SUCKS.. Okay so I know it doesn't really.... I think....

Hooligans

Yesterday I braved the battle field I like to call walmart, with two babies and two "bored" school children we ventured our way through the various isles dodging various cart pushers, finally we were done, as we walked through the front doors heading to the jungle known as the parking lot, I noticed some "hooligans" they were sitting on the ground in front of the store, they were your typical stoners, sitting there smoking and such, I saw Nick looking at them, so I made a mental note to discuss what he had seen, when one of them jumped up and started using any bad name you can think of, Right in front of my children.... I felt the hair stand up on the back of my neck, I felt that maternal instinct kick in and I pounced..... I said " Watch you language, there are young children here!" To my surprise the other "hooligans" circled the offender and said "Come on lets go" not before of course the offender spouted off a few more words and told me that Walmart thought she was a thief" K.. whatever...

When we got in the car I told my kids that those kids had obviously made and were making poor choices, and Nick pointed out that there parents probably were too.... Funny that he would think that way.... He also pointed out that those kids could have shot me..... I thought that was funny and sad that he would think that way too:) I told him that we must always stand up for what is right, and sometimes that was scarey.... He told me if he were going to do bad things it wouldn't be in front of Walmart for everyone to see...... Should I be worried? :)

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OH BOY! BEN IS ONE!!!

Benjamin Cooper Eglet has turned one, I can't believe it! It just seems like yesterday I was pregnant.... Oh the joys of pregnancy (NOT) this time last year, I am afraid the plights of post pardom were sinking in and I thought I was going crazy, I was afraid to tell anyone ( for fear of you know, being thought of as crazy) That was a very scary time, but you know, I would go through it a million times over for my "little" Benjamin:)

When I look at him I see a miracle, all my friends and most relatives my age had gotten married and had there families already, some of there children were even teenagers or close, when they were having there babies, I just assumed it wasn't in the cards for me, I had accepted it.. (not that I hadn't shed a "few" tears over it) I just figured it wasn't meant to be, then I met my Honey and everything changed... it's funny how things happen, it all fell into place and I finally got to find out what it was like to be pregnant... (not my finest 9 months) I finally got to experience that feeling of seeing your child for the first time, that little thing that grew inside of you for 9 months, the little person that moved and kicked and squirmed.. was real......

Nothing compares to that feeling.... So now my "little" guy is one, walking, crawling, talking.... He is a happy little guy, full of joy and mischief, I love you Benjamin Cooper Eglet:)


P.S. Pictures will be added soon:)

Holy Hannah!

As I write this my six year old little girl is singing at the top of her lungs... " I am a witch and I swim in the river" Ok, don't know what that is about:)

I have the stomach flu today, it came into my life at about six thirty this morning, it has been a very long day, my Mom did come over and get Maddy, that helped, she said she couldn't handle Ben and Maddy, sometimes I can't either:) Ben is walking ( sorta) now, he looks like a little drunk when he is doing it, but it is so cute and he is so proud! I can't believe he will be a year old in 17 days! On a sad little side note I will be thirty seven in 16 days... 37!!!! Holy Hannah !!!!

More of the Kiddo's

This is posting weird, so I am not sure where these words are going to end up, the picture of Ben and the cute older gentlemen is Bens name sake, Chris's Grandpa, I love him, he is so cute and nice and is always ready for a good time:) The one with the kids and the fish is in Las Vegas, Mady and Heathers faces crack me up! There is one of Heather Ashlee and Mady in the tub, Mady was in heaven, not sure is ASh and Heather were:) Nick and Heather had a great time swimming in the pool at the Condo! And then there is good ole Dad with his cute little doggy Ben:)

Kiddos

Catching up

I know I should blog more, but I have gotten addicted to Facebook and have forgotten about my sad little blog.... A lot has happened since my last blog, my husband lost his job ( thanks Gov Ritter) he has another one that he starts on the 16th, it pays less than half of what he was making, but we are grateful for work none the less...  We took another trip to Las Vegas, (Before the news of the job) to meet Chris's Grandma.. ( love her) it was fun, But I will wait until Ben and Mady are at least 5 and 6 before I ever attempt another Vacation... It was fun but I was worn out by the time it was over! 

It was nice to see the Wachels one more time, as I write this, they are somewhere in Canada on there way to their new adventure in Alaska...  

The kids have been busy, Nick took third at he Pinewood derby, I was quite grateful because last year he raced two times and was done, there were quite a few tears.... this year he was happy and had a great time ( plus his Dad got to come)

Heather has discovered the art of  "THE JUMP ROPE" I have heard a lot about jump roping as of late... she even discovered somewhere in the deep recesses of her closet that she in fact owned a jump rope... it was like Christmas morning:)

Mady is talking more and more, she will be two in June.... It is neat to watch her try to put sentences together.. the other day she found a freckle on my neck and said " IS THAT YOU OWEE?" She is also doing great at Potty training.... 

Mr. Ben is trying to walk, only when he feels like it though.... he loves to dance and play with his toys... he is such a mellow little guy and melts my heart with his cute little smile:)

Las Vegas

I went to Las Vegas over the week end, my nice hubby bought me a plane ticket so I could visit the Wachels before they move to Alaska and I never see them again. I had a blast, the weather was nice and it was nice to have no responsibility, I missed my family and was happy to return. 

I have to say airports are full of interesting people, I was fortunate enough to sit by some very nice chatty people on the way there, on the way back, I sat by a chubby man who was irritated when I sat down me being chubby (fat) myself he probably was worried the friction between our legs were going to start a small fire in the plane:) 

Anywho back to the airport, there were so many people going to and fro ( ha I said fro) There were people dressed up and people who looked like they had worn the same clothes for days. When I was at passenger p/u in Vegas I saw a famous entertainment news guy, I can't figure out which show yet... he was really short, very cute and had perfect skin. ( Yup I stared) 

The airplane from grand Junction to Salt lake and from Salt Lake to GJ, is very small.... Oh did I say Small? Ya I meant small, I felt like I was on a pretend ride at an amusement park, it made me sick. But it was all worth it so see my friends before they move to Alaska. 

Now I am back, Ben got so excited when he saw me, almost OH YA THAT'S MY MOM... WHERE HAS SHE BEEN? It melted my heart:) 

Who can crawl now?

Yes thats right, our Benjamin is a crawling kid:) 

Happy New Year (again)

I tried to post this with the other pictures of the kids but my computer is a jerk! Happy New year again!

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year