Damn Lady

Grrr.... Yup I said Grrr... I am irritated to say the least! I took Nick and Heather to the Dentist this morning, they have been going to this Dentist since before I was in the picture. I have actually never taken them before, Chris always does, but today I had to... Anyway, Chris has had a payment arrangement with them for FOREVER... HE told me how nice they were and how they will work with you. ( Sigh)

SO I am checking out and the lady said, Do you want to make a payment, I said yes ( Chris has been paying them monthly) She asks if I will pay in full.. Ummm , No I say, I can make a payment ( Duh you just asked me if I can make a payment) How much can you pay? She asks, 30 dollars I say.. You can't pay half? Is her response..... No I say, We lost our benefits, I can pay 30 dollars.... I say with a stressed grin on my face. How about a third? She says.... I say to her, MY husband lost his job, we lost our benefits, all I can pay is 30 dollars......

Do you realize that it will take you 8 months to pay this off? Is what she said to me...

"Good thing you work in a dentists office, because I am going to reach across this desk and pull your front teeth out!" Is what I was thinking, But I said, Yes I realize that, but I am doing the best I can. Finally another lady stepped from around the corner and said " Oh ya, I have this all worked out with Chris"

I realize a lot of people have lost jobs= benefits.. and Doctors have to get paid, but at least we are trying! My neurologist saw me for free two weeks a go because we lost our insurance. I was so shocked and humbled:) Sigh, such is life lately.. I am trying really hard to have faith and endure.. But it is HARD! and I am sick of it... there I said it, judge me all you want.. I am sick of it!!!!

Now that, that is off of my chest I am going to go pray that a very rich benefactor comes into our life and makes this all go away, or at least half of it:) ( The last few sentences were sarcasm.. sorta) :)

School

Well another year of school has started, I can't believe how big Nick and Heather have gotten. I am so glad that they like school. Nick and a friend both "like" the same girl.... I tell ya, being a mother to a little boy has opened my eyes to so many things. Boys are just as dramatic as girls I think.

He played bocugone ( Sp) the other day with the little girl, so I guess they are an item:)

Heather is my little fashonista (sp again) she puts together the cutest funkiest outfits..... She must get that from her Dad, HA HA...

Maddy and Ben were lost the first few days without Nick and Heather, But they seem to be adjusting now. I think it is sweet how much they all love each other. Maddy is talking more and more and learning so much, Ben can say "Love you" now. Ben now weighs more than Maddy, exactly one pound more:)

Life is slowly but surely getting back to normal, Sudden death of a loved one sure knocks you on your Keester. I miss my brother and see so much of him in Maddy. It is still so strange to think that he is gone, and the way that he left still bothers me, my Grandma says it doesn't matter how we leave, we all have to die... I wish I could think that way.

Anywho, my babies are sleeping so I think I will enjoy a hopefully nice long nap:)